You may think I'm way too young to talk about this. Things that might only happen in another 5-10 years but it has already caught my attention. Paranoid I guess. Oh well, when we were younger, responsibility is a word which has no impact on us. As time passes by, and we grow older, the amount of responsibility seems to be evidently getting more. All people handle responsibilities differently, but exceptionally some can't handle responsibility well, and succumb to committing suicide. Sounds familiar?
Firstly, one cannot believe it when our friends get married and plans to raise up a family. From that little childish brat he used to be, and that little princess who couldn't even take care of herself and now, their planning to start a family. Righhhhttt. I will be skeptical about their capability to raise a family because I've known them for years and have seen them inside out, not literally. But, as the years passed by and their children growing up to be little discipline child, you think back and say you yourself. Whoa, not bad, not bad. How did they do it? Well, it's commitment and responsibility that they persevere to give the best for their kids. Some say that, marriages last because of their responsibility to raise their kids.
Okay, so here's the crunch that got me all thinking. I never know if I would be able to live up to the standards of living my dad have given me. And I always use to think that after I come home from work, my wife and kids will be there waiting for my arrival. And my wife, being the ever so loving women she is, always show that she is concern for me and my job. How nice is it to have your wife asking you about your day? Yeah, it may seem like a very common question, but it also shows that she's concern and cares about my well-being in my workplace. I've always pictured that my kids would run towards me, and jumps on me and pulls me and wants me to hug and carry them.
Oh well, I know that all these are just dreams, but in reality it ain't that simple.
But, again, about responsibility, when we grow old and successful we will ask ourselves this question, "how did we grow from a young kid who always misplaces stuff, to be a man that is responsible for the well-being of his kids?"
Oh well, that's life's journey I supposed. Till then.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Back to basics.!
The new year has brought something refreshing upon me. In fairy tales, it's as though a man who was wasted away and had barely any penny left in his pocket suddenly finds a huge treasure box out of the blue, and once again there's hope. I'm feeling a little bit like that in my current moment. It's great to be in this state, feeling all pumped up and determined to achieve my resolutions that I've made. But once again, it's hard to be consistent to maintain this fire from blowing out.
Like many great athlete says, "it's easy to reach No.1, but it's hard to maintain that level of consistency and keep the No.1 spot."
I was having a conversation with Tee Keat over the MSN the other day and we were talking about our spiritual walk, and I shared with him about how inconsistent I've been over the past one month in my QT. So I asked him in return, what about you? "Not so good, going through a rough patch. I think Dublin had made me go back to the very basic. Even that, I'm struggling to get hold of them also." And he continued, "it bring you to ask yourself what God really means to you all these years and what he means to you now".
The second part of the question kept playing in my mind for the pasted two days. And honestly, I felt empty and instead of serving whole heartedly, I was doing it because it was my duty. And Tee Keat's answer brought a whole new meaning to the way I felt. "Ask yourself what God really means to you all these years and what he means to you now". And no doubt about it, he's been my source of hope and strength all these while and even till now. Maybe, it's the environment that makes me lose confidence and feel that sometimes or most of the time I've failed to do my part.
And maybe sometimes, friends do not understand what we're going through and thinks that a certain matter is small to them, but what they mistakenly overlooked, might sometimes be a big matter to another. Thus, we shouldn't take things lightly because what may seem small/little to you, might seem a lot to another.
Arsenal, you've made me proud! Though you lost, but you fought with passion and hunger for glory!
I can see a Arsenal dominance in the near future! =D
Like many great athlete says, "it's easy to reach No.1, but it's hard to maintain that level of consistency and keep the No.1 spot."
I was having a conversation with Tee Keat over the MSN the other day and we were talking about our spiritual walk, and I shared with him about how inconsistent I've been over the past one month in my QT. So I asked him in return, what about you? "Not so good, going through a rough patch. I think Dublin had made me go back to the very basic. Even that, I'm struggling to get hold of them also." And he continued, "it bring you to ask yourself what God really means to you all these years and what he means to you now".
The second part of the question kept playing in my mind for the pasted two days. And honestly, I felt empty and instead of serving whole heartedly, I was doing it because it was my duty. And Tee Keat's answer brought a whole new meaning to the way I felt. "Ask yourself what God really means to you all these years and what he means to you now". And no doubt about it, he's been my source of hope and strength all these while and even till now. Maybe, it's the environment that makes me lose confidence and feel that sometimes or most of the time I've failed to do my part.
And maybe sometimes, friends do not understand what we're going through and thinks that a certain matter is small to them, but what they mistakenly overlooked, might sometimes be a big matter to another. Thus, we shouldn't take things lightly because what may seem small/little to you, might seem a lot to another.
Arsenal, you've made me proud! Though you lost, but you fought with passion and hunger for glory!
I can see a Arsenal dominance in the near future! =D
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Father and Son.
Yesterday, as we were in the car heading to Bangsar for dinner, my dad was on the phone talking to one of his clients(if i am not mistaken). So they were talking for quite sometime already, then my dad suddenly realized that he was talking to himself! HAHA. The line got cut. So he was consoling himself
"Well, I like talking to myself".
Right after that, the phone rang, my dad "picked up the phone call" and started talking, " hey, guess what, I've been talking to myself for the pass 15 minutes". Then the phone RANG again. LoL. Meaning this time he really was talking to himself. everyone laughed so hard. Dad's have this unique chemistry that never fails to make their children smile.
On the other hand,you know, how father and son have their special father-son talk? Honestly, I've heard so many of my friends having a father and son talk, giving them advice, encouraging them, having that special father and son internal joke. I've never had that, but it would be great to have this special bond with my dad. I really wonder how it would be. Personally they would want the best for you, therefore everything they advice would be for the best, right?
And don't you realize, the best thing that could happen is having the green light from your parents. Showing that they are fully behind you in that thing you wish to do.
Oh well, hopefully, one sweet day it will happen.
later.
"Well, I like talking to myself".
Right after that, the phone rang, my dad "picked up the phone call" and started talking, " hey, guess what, I've been talking to myself for the pass 15 minutes". Then the phone RANG again. LoL. Meaning this time he really was talking to himself. everyone laughed so hard. Dad's have this unique chemistry that never fails to make their children smile.
On the other hand,you know, how father and son have their special father-son talk? Honestly, I've heard so many of my friends having a father and son talk, giving them advice, encouraging them, having that special father and son internal joke. I've never had that, but it would be great to have this special bond with my dad. I really wonder how it would be. Personally they would want the best for you, therefore everything they advice would be for the best, right?
And don't you realize, the best thing that could happen is having the green light from your parents. Showing that they are fully behind you in that thing you wish to do.
Oh well, hopefully, one sweet day it will happen.
later.
That silence..
Once again, there's this void which happens to be there every time she's gone. Yes, she left earlier just now and once again I've never learn to show her how much I really care for her. She had been back in Malaysia for 3 months and yet again I fail to even show her how much I truly care for her and tell her how much she truly meant to me. Am I that bad of a brother? I regret somethings that I never did to show you that I do care for you. Now, that you're already 5 hours on the plane, there's nothing much that I can do, so I feel that this is one of the way I can best express what I really want to say to you. This is for you.
Will see you in a couple of months alright? If you're in luck, I'll be coming down in June/July. Wait for the good news! Till then.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and with all your soul and with all your mind. =)
For the girl that played a big part in my life.
Sometimes she makes me frustrated,
Over little things which which are overrated.
Sometimes I make her angry,
And because of my ego, I never said sorry.
Sometimes she comes into my room to irritate me,
I lose my temper and shout at her,
As she walks out of my room feeling dejected,
I am always reminded of what a shit i can be.
And there she goes again,
On a plane, and not a train.
Regrets and feeling despair,
With all that's left is the strands of her hair.
Everyday I walk out of my room to see an empty space,
So many times, that I've lost trace.
That void which cannot be replace.
Please tell me what could be my solace?
Until you're back,
I'll train myself to fill the part of me that lacks.
At this very moment, all I really want you to know,
is that, I love you.
My dearest sister.
Sometimes I make her angry,
And because of my ego, I never said sorry.
Sometimes she comes into my room to irritate me,
I lose my temper and shout at her,
As she walks out of my room feeling dejected,
I am always reminded of what a shit i can be.
And there she goes again,
On a plane, and not a train.
Regrets and feeling despair,
With all that's left is the strands of her hair.
Everyday I walk out of my room to see an empty space,
So many times, that I've lost trace.
That void which cannot be replace.
Please tell me what could be my solace?
Until you're back,
I'll train myself to fill the part of me that lacks.
At this very moment, all I really want you to know,
is that, I love you.
My dearest sister.
Will see you in a couple of months alright? If you're in luck, I'll be coming down in June/July. Wait for the good news! Till then.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and with all your soul and with all your mind. =)
Friday, February 23, 2007
Card games.
Before I begin, I just wanted to say that if any of you felt offended by my last post, I apologies. But, there's really nothing to be offended about because I already wrote at the end of my last post that this is only MY VIEW, well, if it contradicts your view, don't bother. Don't take it to heart. And yes, it's just a debate, there's no right answer, really. So yeah, if any of you are still offended, just drop it, because believe me or not, I don't really care. I brought this matter up for the sake of blogging.
Well, have you ever heard of the gambling? I'm pretty sure many of you or most of you do gamble during Chinese New Year. You've heard of card games called Black Jack, Poker, Big Two, but have you ever heard of the game called in-between? This game is a silent killer. It's as though you're playing against yourself, your greediness to be precise. Easy to win, easy to lose. Well, the concept of the game is that the dealer deals two cards (one per round, so the dealer has to deal two rounds.). A player opens his/her card. The trick of the game is to bet according to what you think you're able to win (and it also depends how much the amount the pool has ) against the odds of you getting a card which number is in-between the two cards you got from the dealer. If it's outside your range, you pay the amount you bet into the pool and if you're inside, vice versa. If you get the same number card as the cards on your hand, you pay twice the amount you bet into the pool.
----
So just now this was what happened.
Guess how much the amount in the pool could reach with 16 people playing?
It started off with RM16.(each round each player puts in RM1). So after a few rounds and a few winners, some became more greedy for money. Bets increased and many of them were out of range. The pool was slowly increasing in it's value. So, it reached a round when, Su Ann got an Ace and a Queen. Fuiyoh. Winning moment.
" I bet RM50 lah"
jeng jeng jeng... kena tiang!
(put in RM100 into the pool.)
It's really crazy man. The pool of money shot up to almost RM300. Enough to buy a pair of brand new Adidas. Furthermore, one thing I was really surprise to see kids below 18 carrying around more than RM 250 to gamble. Hardcore man.
So, did I win or lose?
I broke even.
hehe, but overall I'm -RM30 after all the other days of card games.
Well, as some say it's only once a year. But I guess for some it's an all year round thing. Haha. Well, that's all for now =).
Well, have you ever heard of the gambling? I'm pretty sure many of you or most of you do gamble during Chinese New Year. You've heard of card games called Black Jack, Poker, Big Two, but have you ever heard of the game called in-between? This game is a silent killer. It's as though you're playing against yourself, your greediness to be precise. Easy to win, easy to lose. Well, the concept of the game is that the dealer deals two cards (one per round, so the dealer has to deal two rounds.). A player opens his/her card. The trick of the game is to bet according to what you think you're able to win (and it also depends how much the amount the pool has ) against the odds of you getting a card which number is in-between the two cards you got from the dealer. If it's outside your range, you pay the amount you bet into the pool and if you're inside, vice versa. If you get the same number card as the cards on your hand, you pay twice the amount you bet into the pool.
----
So just now this was what happened.
Guess how much the amount in the pool could reach with 16 people playing?
It started off with RM16.(each round each player puts in RM1). So after a few rounds and a few winners, some became more greedy for money. Bets increased and many of them were out of range. The pool was slowly increasing in it's value. So, it reached a round when, Su Ann got an Ace and a Queen. Fuiyoh. Winning moment.
" I bet RM50 lah"
jeng jeng jeng... kena tiang!
(put in RM100 into the pool.)
It's really crazy man. The pool of money shot up to almost RM300. Enough to buy a pair of brand new Adidas. Furthermore, one thing I was really surprise to see kids below 18 carrying around more than RM 250 to gamble. Hardcore man.
So, did I win or lose?
I broke even.
hehe, but overall I'm -RM30 after all the other days of card games.
Well, as some say it's only once a year. But I guess for some it's an all year round thing. Haha. Well, that's all for now =).
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Emotional Declaration, no?
So, I've been reading quite a number of emotional lines every time I come online, and I mean EVERY single time! Not once in the past two weeks. I realized that sometimes I myself write some emo stuff as my sub-nick. Someone was saying something like, "why must people put up emotional nicks as their sub-nick? Want self sympathy ah?". I ignored that comment and didn't agree with that person. Then the past week, I begun to ponder deeper on that thought and I guess to a certain extend, it true.
Come on, for those who don't agree with me, let me tell you some reason why I agree.
1) Why would someone write something emotional and put it as their nickname and display it?
2) Usually emotional nicknames are meant for something more personal.
3) If you're not seeking for sympathy, then what are you trying to imply?
4) And if the emotional messages is directed to someone, why must show the whole world?
5) Merely self sympathy.
Even if you don't think you're self sympathizing, you are. Haha. I've been there before, and I denied that it was self sympathy, but looking back at it, honestly, there's no point in putting up those emotional messages if I did not want other people to know my situation. Oh well, if you have something you want to say to a person, say straight lah. Yeah, call me a hypocrite. But will TRY not to seek self-sympathy (litterally) with my emo nicknames anymore. HAHA.
And yeah,one more thing, if you're listening to some gay BSB song (don't get me wrong, BSB is a good group(was just trying to illustrate)), try not to flash them to the world too. HAHA. I've learn my lesson. Unless you really think that the song is macho or really good and you want to share the joy, go ahead. If not, unadvised. Oh well, you've just gotta trust me with this. Well, before I end this post, here's something to keep in mind. Mind you, it's not emo. =P
"A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be".
and since I'm a friend. I'm trying to be one of the best thing a guy can be.
=)
Come on, for those who don't agree with me, let me tell you some reason why I agree.
1) Why would someone write something emotional and put it as their nickname and display it?
2) Usually emotional nicknames are meant for something more personal.
3) If you're not seeking for sympathy, then what are you trying to imply?
4) And if the emotional messages is directed to someone, why must show the whole world?
5) Merely self sympathy.
Even if you don't think you're self sympathizing, you are. Haha. I've been there before, and I denied that it was self sympathy, but looking back at it, honestly, there's no point in putting up those emotional messages if I did not want other people to know my situation. Oh well, if you have something you want to say to a person, say straight lah. Yeah, call me a hypocrite. But will TRY not to seek self-sympathy (litterally) with my emo nicknames anymore. HAHA.
And yeah,one more thing, if you're listening to some gay BSB song (don't get me wrong, BSB is a good group(was just trying to illustrate)), try not to flash them to the world too. HAHA. I've learn my lesson. Unless you really think that the song is macho or really good and you want to share the joy, go ahead. If not, unadvised. Oh well, you've just gotta trust me with this. Well, before I end this post, here's something to keep in mind. Mind you, it's not emo. =P
"A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be".
and since I'm a friend. I'm trying to be one of the best thing a guy can be.
=)
Of Chinese New Year.
Chinese new year was once a time to play with my cousins. Gamble, have sleepovers, house hopping hoping to get more red packets. I used to be the initiator to start gambling. Haha, can you imagine a standard 3 kids calling people to get together to play some cards? HAHA. Looking back at it, life was so carefree.
Following customs, Chinese new year is supposed to be a time when the family members reunite and spend some quality time together by eating, chatting, watching tv, talking about what has happened to you since the previous year or previous time you met up. A time to share your abundance by giving red packets, a time when everyone will be looking up at channel 30 and see some live concert in conjunction with CNY.
Although, it seems like its all fun receiving red packets and all, but I can never relinquish the craze that I had for red packets when I was in upper primary. Furthermore, when we were young, I realized that my cousins and I have much more in common than what we have now. Last time, it was all noisy, but these days it's been all subtle. We don't share what was special to us kids anymore.
All grown up and some started to work and some already having their own little kids which looks identically like them. Chinese New Year isn't Chinese new year like it used to be anymore. Cousins all meet up in our aunty's house just for a quick meal for the sake of being there and not for the sake of meeting up together. I miss the old days =(.
So actually what does the 12 animals mean? rat, cow, tiger, rabbit, dragon. etc.
Anyone?
Following customs, Chinese new year is supposed to be a time when the family members reunite and spend some quality time together by eating, chatting, watching tv, talking about what has happened to you since the previous year or previous time you met up. A time to share your abundance by giving red packets, a time when everyone will be looking up at channel 30 and see some live concert in conjunction with CNY.
Although, it seems like its all fun receiving red packets and all, but I can never relinquish the craze that I had for red packets when I was in upper primary. Furthermore, when we were young, I realized that my cousins and I have much more in common than what we have now. Last time, it was all noisy, but these days it's been all subtle. We don't share what was special to us kids anymore.
All grown up and some started to work and some already having their own little kids which looks identically like them. Chinese New Year isn't Chinese new year like it used to be anymore. Cousins all meet up in our aunty's house just for a quick meal for the sake of being there and not for the sake of meeting up together. I miss the old days =(.
So actually what does the 12 animals mean? rat, cow, tiger, rabbit, dragon. etc.
Anyone?
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Be Considerate.
I always think to myself, why are some people so unappreciative when I try my best to do something for them. Personally, I think that I'm a person who's very patient and sometimes I KNOW that some people take me for granted. Come on lah, people treat you nice, doesn't mean you need to take advantage of them. If it's only a few times I really don't mind but, seriously, all the time, give me a break man. And Yes, I'm talking about me being a nice friend fetching you guys around. Mind you, if I say I'll fetch you I will, but sometimes just mind your limits and be understanding lah.
Here's a few examples of what I mean unreasonable.
1) Your bro/sis have a car and doesn't want to fetch you to where you want to go. Please, it's not my duty to fill in their place. Too bad for you.
2) If your bro/sis drives and doesn't want to go out, but you want to go out. Too bad. Go home. Once again, if you're lucky, I will OFFER to take you home, if not too bad. If I can do that last time, why can't you?
3) Your mom doesn't let you out, unless you have transport home, don't go telling your mom you have someone to take you home, someone meaning ( me, or any of the drivers) to take you home before you confirm anything with the drivers themselves. How inconsiderate are you to do that? It's as if, people have nothing better to do. Think about whether the drivers mind before saying anything lah.
4) And yes, petrol is not cheap. Do you people know that as drivers we do get lectures from our parents for spending too much on petrol? Why do we spend too much on petrol? Is because we try our best to bring you guys around but you guys don't understand what we go through at home. Gratitude lah. Honestly, I could really save a lot more if I don't take you guys out or send you guys home and get to save the lecture from my parents for another day, so please do ask nicely lah. People also have names one lah. FIRST place you cannot even say PLEASE or THANK YOU, how would you think the driver taking you to the destination will feel? peoples name is not "EH".
5) And when drivers say that they can't fetch you home. They really mean it. Is like I telling you that I can't send you home, but you still keep on saying "please lah", you make us drivers feel dilemma because in the first place we already say we can't take you back, but you still keep on persisting. DO TAKE THEIR WORDS SERIOUSLY!
6) And even if you want someone to fetch you, please call and ask for transport at least 3 hours before hand. And yes, I would really appreciate it, because i can sort out my timing.
I offer transport to:
* those who doesn't have car and which have no brother or sister who can drive
** children who's parents are not church members and needs a ride to church
*** friends that I WANT/OFFER/WILLINGLY to fetch.
So Don't Bug me if your criteria doesn't suit the above.
I've stated my reasons and I really hope you people take me seriously.
AND YES, Normal etiquettes, let me help you with some tips on how to show your appreciation to your drivers. For example:
1) Paying for tolls (once in awhile will also be much appreciated)
2) Paying for car park (as above)
3) Going on a long trip, please pay for transportation lah. I mean put yourself in the drivers shoe, you won't want to take all the burden to pay for petrol and the tolls right. Even if the driver never ask you, at least be smart enough to ask him first whether or not need to pay, and if you're lucky he might just absorb it himself. (even so, paying for the toll also will make the driver feel appreciated).
So yes, I've made a commitment to fetch you guys like how the seniors used to fetch me, so do think again. is it too much you're asking, is it out of the way? or whatever lah before making your own decisions. Priority guys. Priority.
* I think all the drivers would agree with me. Or might have a slight different in opinion. But overall I think I've roughly covered major grounds!
Here's a few examples of what I mean unreasonable.
1) Your bro/sis have a car and doesn't want to fetch you to where you want to go. Please, it's not my duty to fill in their place. Too bad for you.
2) If your bro/sis drives and doesn't want to go out, but you want to go out. Too bad. Go home. Once again, if you're lucky, I will OFFER to take you home, if not too bad. If I can do that last time, why can't you?
3) Your mom doesn't let you out, unless you have transport home, don't go telling your mom you have someone to take you home, someone meaning ( me, or any of the drivers) to take you home before you confirm anything with the drivers themselves. How inconsiderate are you to do that? It's as if, people have nothing better to do. Think about whether the drivers mind before saying anything lah.
4) And yes, petrol is not cheap. Do you people know that as drivers we do get lectures from our parents for spending too much on petrol? Why do we spend too much on petrol? Is because we try our best to bring you guys around but you guys don't understand what we go through at home. Gratitude lah. Honestly, I could really save a lot more if I don't take you guys out or send you guys home and get to save the lecture from my parents for another day, so please do ask nicely lah. People also have names one lah. FIRST place you cannot even say PLEASE or THANK YOU, how would you think the driver taking you to the destination will feel? peoples name is not "EH".
5) And when drivers say that they can't fetch you home. They really mean it. Is like I telling you that I can't send you home, but you still keep on saying "please lah", you make us drivers feel dilemma because in the first place we already say we can't take you back, but you still keep on persisting. DO TAKE THEIR WORDS SERIOUSLY!
6) And even if you want someone to fetch you, please call and ask for transport at least 3 hours before hand. And yes, I would really appreciate it, because i can sort out my timing.
I offer transport to:
* those who doesn't have car and which have no brother or sister who can drive
** children who's parents are not church members and needs a ride to church
*** friends that I WANT/OFFER/WILLINGLY to fetch.
So Don't Bug me if your criteria doesn't suit the above.
I've stated my reasons and I really hope you people take me seriously.
AND YES, Normal etiquettes, let me help you with some tips on how to show your appreciation to your drivers. For example:
1) Paying for tolls (once in awhile will also be much appreciated)
2) Paying for car park (as above)
3) Going on a long trip, please pay for transportation lah. I mean put yourself in the drivers shoe, you won't want to take all the burden to pay for petrol and the tolls right. Even if the driver never ask you, at least be smart enough to ask him first whether or not need to pay, and if you're lucky he might just absorb it himself. (even so, paying for the toll also will make the driver feel appreciated).
So yes, I've made a commitment to fetch you guys like how the seniors used to fetch me, so do think again. is it too much you're asking, is it out of the way? or whatever lah before making your own decisions. Priority guys. Priority.
* I think all the drivers would agree with me. Or might have a slight different in opinion. But overall I think I've roughly covered major grounds!
Friday, February 16, 2007
Pathway
Today begins my holiday for 10 days!, it really didn't seem like college had already restarted for 2 weeks or either that the studying mood hasn't kicked in yet. Even the lecturers seem to be taking things slow. Are we just paced that way I wonder? Furthermore, considering it's a short semester, lecturer's should be working at full speed to finish their syllabus, which I don't think it matter to them because whether you like it or not, they are not the ones going to be sitting for the exams. Fed up!
Reality haven't really sunk in yet. I mean, I've asked so many of my friends, so do you know where you're heading to?(studies wise) . Most of them have already a clear path on what they would be pursuing and when people ask me, so what about you? I stun and answer, "not sure". Never really gave it a thought I supposed. Then suddenly, I thought to myself, I'll be finishing my A-levels next year and it's only another 10 more months before it reaches a threshold of a new year. How time flies is crazy, it seemed that the new year had only begun not too long ago, and now it's already the mid of February. Scary.
So I gave myself some thoughts, and was planning about doing finance/accounts or finance/management or either that some business major. I really don't know. Anyone wants to give their thoughts on it? Please do, would really appreciate if you would kindly leave a comment or something. =)
Well, I guess this is all for now, till then, have a save journey back to your kampung or hometowns, so to speak. Well, I'm a KL boy, anyone back in the city and not doing anything much and would like to yum char do call yah! Haha. Yeah. Sad.
Reality haven't really sunk in yet. I mean, I've asked so many of my friends, so do you know where you're heading to?(studies wise) . Most of them have already a clear path on what they would be pursuing and when people ask me, so what about you? I stun and answer, "not sure". Never really gave it a thought I supposed. Then suddenly, I thought to myself, I'll be finishing my A-levels next year and it's only another 10 more months before it reaches a threshold of a new year. How time flies is crazy, it seemed that the new year had only begun not too long ago, and now it's already the mid of February. Scary.
So I gave myself some thoughts, and was planning about doing finance/accounts or finance/management or either that some business major. I really don't know. Anyone wants to give their thoughts on it? Please do, would really appreciate if you would kindly leave a comment or something. =)
Well, I guess this is all for now, till then, have a save journey back to your kampung or hometowns, so to speak. Well, I'm a KL boy, anyone back in the city and not doing anything much and would like to yum char do call yah! Haha. Yeah. Sad.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Silent Kisses
He lies asleep on the couch,
As she's doing her make-up by the dressing table.
She freezes her actions and takes a moment to gazed at him,
And slowly she produce a smile of pure satisfaction.
Slowly she approached him,
And with her fragile fingers she caresses his cheek.
And with a small breathe,
She blew away crumbs of biscuits which was evident on his face.
A slight jerky movement was felt,
He was awaken, but still with his droopy looking eyes, and his mind still stuck in wonderland,
He realized that his lady was admiring him silently,
And he smiles back with a sense of affirmation
He leans towards her,
And whispered in her ears,
"I love that smile of yours",
And gently kisses her on her lips passionately.
He lies asleep on the couch,
As she's doing her make-up by the dressing table.
She freezes her actions and takes a moment to gazed at him,
And slowly she produce a smile of pure satisfaction.
Slowly she approached him,
And with her fragile fingers she caresses his cheek.
And with a small breathe,
She blew away crumbs of biscuits which was evident on his face.
A slight jerky movement was felt,
He was awaken, but still with his droopy looking eyes, and his mind still stuck in wonderland,
He realized that his lady was admiring him silently,
And he smiles back with a sense of affirmation
He leans towards her,
And whispered in her ears,
"I love that smile of yours",
And gently kisses her on her lips passionately.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
eve of another day
I always feel that questions that are often asked during a period of one week before valentine's day is.
For Bachelors:-
1) Eh, you have a date ah?
2) Sigh, what you doing for Valentine's day ah?
3) Another lonely 14th?
4) Wanna go out and do something? (another bachelor asking another bachelor)
5) So how do you wish to spend your valentine's?
For Couples:-
1) Where you taking your girlfriend? Or vice versa. Where's your Bf taking you?
2) So what did you get your date?
3) Any new plans this year?
4) So, excited?
5) Whatever.
You know, these questions are redundant. Year after year, the same old question comes around. Furthermore, it not only happens on this particular occasion but to all the other occasion, ranging from CNY to Christmas, but just with their own set of repetitive questions. Is our vocabulary range really lacking? Sometimes it repeats itself so often, that it just becomes a question just to strike up a conversation. Seems so artificial or in layman's term, so fake.
Well well, here's just something that I thought a while ago. A poem for her. That girl. Entitled:-
For Bachelors:-
1) Eh, you have a date ah?
2) Sigh, what you doing for Valentine's day ah?
3) Another lonely 14th?
4) Wanna go out and do something? (another bachelor asking another bachelor)
5) So how do you wish to spend your valentine's?
For Couples:-
1) Where you taking your girlfriend? Or vice versa. Where's your Bf taking you?
2) So what did you get your date?
3) Any new plans this year?
4) So, excited?
5) Whatever.
You know, these questions are redundant. Year after year, the same old question comes around. Furthermore, it not only happens on this particular occasion but to all the other occasion, ranging from CNY to Christmas, but just with their own set of repetitive questions. Is our vocabulary range really lacking? Sometimes it repeats itself so often, that it just becomes a question just to strike up a conversation. Seems so artificial or in layman's term, so fake.
Well well, here's just something that I thought a while ago. A poem for her. That girl. Entitled:-
Waiting for you
The wind blows the air,
A gentle breeze caresses her hair.
He takes a step towards her,
Gently he takes her by her hand and pulls her closer.
He feels a sense of nervousness rushing through his whole body,
Never knowing what was going to happen next,
Into his pocket, he reaches for a tissue paper,
And it was a written text expressing the words he could not utter to her vocally.
The rest was left history,
No one really knew what was written on that piece of tissue,
Not even the sun or the moon,
Only that beautiful young lady that he was willing to take a chance with.
Have a blessed valentine's day! =)A gentle breeze caresses her hair.
He takes a step towards her,
Gently he takes her by her hand and pulls her closer.
He feels a sense of nervousness rushing through his whole body,
Never knowing what was going to happen next,
Into his pocket, he reaches for a tissue paper,
And it was a written text expressing the words he could not utter to her vocally.
The rest was left history,
No one really knew what was written on that piece of tissue,
Not even the sun or the moon,
Only that beautiful young lady that he was willing to take a chance with.
Friday, February 09, 2007
I miss being a kid
I miss being a kid, you know, the times when we could do anything without worrying about the consequences which comes after that or how we treat everything as a new adventure, and have a different name for the same thing. AND Using our imaginations, our life's become so alive. The times when we ask any question and it didn't seem to be wrong. For example when we ask things such as,"auntie, why your shirt up there coming out one?" it didn't even seem wrong, or the auntie knew that we are too young and were likely to ask questions which would be awkward for her to answer. She'll just give you a smile and say "next time you'll know." or something along that line.
As a kid, I really love the swing, i remember last time i like to swing high high and sort of compete with my other friends. I remember one time, this guy really wanted to beat me, he swing swing swing so high until the thing almost over turn. Stupid kid. I remember the see-saw, I used to be a fatty or heavier (not that I'm any lighter now) and I used to play with my sisters the see-saw. They seat at the other end then i purposely use my body weight and jump onto the see-saw and then they bounced up and hit their butt on the see-saw and then they will complain to my mom. Haha. Am I evil or what?
You know, I used to love Barney, haha i remember that everyday i will rush home from playing football and basketball with the neighbourhood kids just to watch Barney and friends. After that there's doremon. Orange Mango Guava(OMG), that's really cool, knowing that nobita is just barely my age and he gets to have this really cool pet called doraemon which can take things out of his pouch and do things which is technically impossible. All the kids my age, I'm sure were jealous, and would really want to have that kind of pet.
As a kid, expressing your love for your parents seem so much easier and your parents will really know that it's really sincere that you love them because as a kid, you're really sincere. Nowadays, a lot of people face the problem of telling their parents that they love them. How sad is that? Knowing that they have brought us up since we were young to the person we've become. I'm sure we all should be thankful. Being a kid gave me the license to do basically anything i want, like climbing up trees without people thinking that I am crazy. haha. yeah I used to love climbing trees.
Furthermore, when I was younger, mom would always cut my finger nails for me, dig my ear for me. I damn like that feeling lah. Missed it so much.As a kid, I get opportunities to get invited to play in those kick arse maze like the one we used to have in Intencity. Haha. Being a kid really has it's major pros. If only I could just be a kid for one day. i would be happy man! hehe.
Simple mindedness, easy going life, no worries no problems. I miss being a kid. =(
As a kid, I really love the swing, i remember last time i like to swing high high and sort of compete with my other friends. I remember one time, this guy really wanted to beat me, he swing swing swing so high until the thing almost over turn. Stupid kid. I remember the see-saw, I used to be a fatty or heavier (not that I'm any lighter now) and I used to play with my sisters the see-saw. They seat at the other end then i purposely use my body weight and jump onto the see-saw and then they bounced up and hit their butt on the see-saw and then they will complain to my mom. Haha. Am I evil or what?
You know, I used to love Barney, haha i remember that everyday i will rush home from playing football and basketball with the neighbourhood kids just to watch Barney and friends. After that there's doremon. Orange Mango Guava(OMG), that's really cool, knowing that nobita is just barely my age and he gets to have this really cool pet called doraemon which can take things out of his pouch and do things which is technically impossible. All the kids my age, I'm sure were jealous, and would really want to have that kind of pet.
As a kid, expressing your love for your parents seem so much easier and your parents will really know that it's really sincere that you love them because as a kid, you're really sincere. Nowadays, a lot of people face the problem of telling their parents that they love them. How sad is that? Knowing that they have brought us up since we were young to the person we've become. I'm sure we all should be thankful. Being a kid gave me the license to do basically anything i want, like climbing up trees without people thinking that I am crazy. haha. yeah I used to love climbing trees.
Furthermore, when I was younger, mom would always cut my finger nails for me, dig my ear for me. I damn like that feeling lah. Missed it so much.As a kid, I get opportunities to get invited to play in those kick arse maze like the one we used to have in Intencity. Haha. Being a kid really has it's major pros. If only I could just be a kid for one day. i would be happy man! hehe.
Simple mindedness, easy going life, no worries no problems. I miss being a kid. =(
Jumble Mumbles.
Hello goodbye. I read my blog title and thought to myself, "Why in the world did I choose that word to be my title at that point of time?". Seriously, it doesn't really make sense to me now that I've given it some thought.
Have you ever felt that somethings in the past that we say or do which seems so significant at that point of time seems so insignificant or rather has little effect now that you've thought back about it? How I used to have small argues with either my sisters or friends and thinking back about it,it was pure childishness, how I thought that my hairstyle was quite alright until I look back and notice that it was way weird, in fact, to the point that it was out of control. HAHA. Laugh all you want, but it's a fact.
The teddy bear which I grew up with until my mum decided that it was too old and disallowed me to sleep with it made me cry for a few days, and now 13 years down the road, I look at it with a smile and said that was just a teddy bear that I slept with when I was young, and it didn't matter anymore that it had to be seated in the store room. Furthermore, the little girl which I used to like, which I thought was true love at that time, came to me as puppy love now that I'm all grown up. She was your life, your everything (technically) and she broke my heart and now that you're all grown up, she's just a dear friend to me. That sort of thing. A thing so significant in the past, now seems so insignificant. Like how we were willing to wait 5 minutes for a page to load during the dial-up 56k era till the broadband connection came and took it's place today, and now waiting for 5 seconds to load a page would have a lot of grumbles. Sounds familiar?
Well, just take a few minutes to reminiscence those days and before you know it, you'd be smiling to yourself without hesitation. That was just something that came into my mind and decided to share it with you guys.
Tata for now!
Have you ever felt that somethings in the past that we say or do which seems so significant at that point of time seems so insignificant or rather has little effect now that you've thought back about it? How I used to have small argues with either my sisters or friends and thinking back about it,it was pure childishness, how I thought that my hairstyle was quite alright until I look back and notice that it was way weird, in fact, to the point that it was out of control. HAHA. Laugh all you want, but it's a fact.
The teddy bear which I grew up with until my mum decided that it was too old and disallowed me to sleep with it made me cry for a few days, and now 13 years down the road, I look at it with a smile and said that was just a teddy bear that I slept with when I was young, and it didn't matter anymore that it had to be seated in the store room. Furthermore, the little girl which I used to like, which I thought was true love at that time, came to me as puppy love now that I'm all grown up. She was your life, your everything (technically) and she broke my heart and now that you're all grown up, she's just a dear friend to me. That sort of thing. A thing so significant in the past, now seems so insignificant. Like how we were willing to wait 5 minutes for a page to load during the dial-up 56k era till the broadband connection came and took it's place today, and now waiting for 5 seconds to load a page would have a lot of grumbles. Sounds familiar?
Well, just take a few minutes to reminiscence those days and before you know it, you'd be smiling to yourself without hesitation. That was just something that came into my mind and decided to share it with you guys.
Tata for now!
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Retired by 20
I can't sleep so I decided to blog, it's 10 minutes pass 3 a.m. and I dunno why I'm so awake even though in the afternoon my schedule was really hectic. Let me, summarize my day for you readers. It started out after college ended at 2, met King halfway on the road, decided to meet up in village park before heading to bao bao for lunch. So I called Ben, he asked me to check if the shop open. So i drove to Bao Bao, supposedly they serve some extraordinary pan mee, so I went there to check if it was open, and there my hopes went crushing down. So called Ben back, then said we were heading back to village park. 15 minutes later, i recieved a message, "eh i not joining village park". So Bendy and me decided to go mee yoke, chow yang, so called Ben back, he said go eat some paramount pan mee. So go lor. After that headed to centrepoint for car wash. After that went to tar kei. After finishing that went to one utama to eat dinner with Jason. After that I reached home, watched 2 episodes of grey's anatomy, and went downstairs to talk to a friend. Came back played a game of dota, lost the game, and here I am. Can't sleep.
Well, I had a talk with a friend earlier. Talking about relationship and things related to it. It's really bold to see him taking actions and I could see that he was ready to receive the worst but he still took this opportunity, never letting this chance pass him by without having a go, and he told me," I don't know, but I have this feeling inside of me and I need to let it out. I'm a very straightforward kind of guy". He was talking to me about his girl problem. I look at myself, am I ready to do that? If you knew me better, you'd know that I'm pretty shy and talking to a girl and expressing my feelings for her is not exactly the best thing a guy like me could do. Furthermore, if I was telling the brother of the girl that I like, how much I feel for his sister. LoL. I know a lot of things would be floating through your mind right now. But I assure you, it's not who you think it is. ^.^
"we love, because he first loved us"
Well, I had a talk with a friend earlier. Talking about relationship and things related to it. It's really bold to see him taking actions and I could see that he was ready to receive the worst but he still took this opportunity, never letting this chance pass him by without having a go, and he told me," I don't know, but I have this feeling inside of me and I need to let it out. I'm a very straightforward kind of guy". He was talking to me about his girl problem. I look at myself, am I ready to do that? If you knew me better, you'd know that I'm pretty shy and talking to a girl and expressing my feelings for her is not exactly the best thing a guy like me could do. Furthermore, if I was telling the brother of the girl that I like, how much I feel for his sister. LoL. I know a lot of things would be floating through your mind right now. But I assure you, it's not who you think it is. ^.^
"we love, because he first loved us"
Monday, February 05, 2007
No one knows my name.
Every fairytale has to end one day.
For me, it's currently my holidays and now, it's back to the books for me. I probably can't deny that I had quite a good long break, 2 months to be exact. In these two months, I can say that it was just a nice break for me. No stress. No worries whatsoever. I thought that this break was equally good to the break that I took after RBS.
Alright, call me desperado what so ever because I'm back with the topic about relationships. a fortnight ago, on Saturday, we had Uncle Steven to speak to us about BGR and the topic was "breaking up is hard to do". Indeed breaking up is hard to do. No doubt about it. I think this is familiar with almost everyone out there, you know when you're interested in someone (courting time), you seem to have so much to tell her and so much questions you want to ask a person to be part of her life. But when reality hits, both parties seems to have their mouth shut when they see meet other and the feeling gets all awkward. Why leh? I also don't know why.
Well, after attending the talk on "breaking up is hard to do" I realize why sometimes relationship fails. Or for my case, why I cannot get a girlfriend. First and foremost, have I ever prayed for our soon-to-be-girlfriend to be prepared to enter into a relationship? Have I prayed for myself that God will prepared me to be a boyfriend? Could I be able to handle the commitment? Am I ready to handle all the responsibilities?
It made me think and take into account all the other factors and figured out if I was able to handle it. Sometimes we think about ourselves too much and we get a girlfriend just to satisfy our selfish desires but not to make them feel the way that you want to feel like when you're with them.
We may say a thousand words, but if we don't show it through our actions, it meant nothing. Thus, I've got to have the courage to show my feelings through actions sometimes.
Well, that's it for now.
ear food of the moment: BOSTON
part of the lyrics of the song BOSTON.
You don't know me, you don't even care.
She said, "You don't even know me, you don't wear my chains"
She said, "I think I'll go to Boston, I think I'll start a new life"
"I think I'll start it over", No one knows my name.
absence makes the heart grows fonder.
distance also makes separation easier.
For me, it's currently my holidays and now, it's back to the books for me. I probably can't deny that I had quite a good long break, 2 months to be exact. In these two months, I can say that it was just a nice break for me. No stress. No worries whatsoever. I thought that this break was equally good to the break that I took after RBS.
Alright, call me desperado what so ever because I'm back with the topic about relationships. a fortnight ago, on Saturday, we had Uncle Steven to speak to us about BGR and the topic was "breaking up is hard to do". Indeed breaking up is hard to do. No doubt about it. I think this is familiar with almost everyone out there, you know when you're interested in someone (courting time), you seem to have so much to tell her and so much questions you want to ask a person to be part of her life. But when reality hits, both parties seems to have their mouth shut when they see meet other and the feeling gets all awkward. Why leh? I also don't know why.
Well, after attending the talk on "breaking up is hard to do" I realize why sometimes relationship fails. Or for my case, why I cannot get a girlfriend. First and foremost, have I ever prayed for our soon-to-be-girlfriend to be prepared to enter into a relationship? Have I prayed for myself that God will prepared me to be a boyfriend? Could I be able to handle the commitment? Am I ready to handle all the responsibilities?
It made me think and take into account all the other factors and figured out if I was able to handle it. Sometimes we think about ourselves too much and we get a girlfriend just to satisfy our selfish desires but not to make them feel the way that you want to feel like when you're with them.
We may say a thousand words, but if we don't show it through our actions, it meant nothing. Thus, I've got to have the courage to show my feelings through actions sometimes.
Well, that's it for now.
ear food of the moment: BOSTON
part of the lyrics of the song BOSTON.
You don't know me, you don't even care.
She said, "You don't even know me, you don't wear my chains"
She said, "I think I'll go to Boston, I think I'll start a new life"
"I think I'll start it over", No one knows my name.
absence makes the heart grows fonder.
distance also makes separation easier.
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