You know what I crave for at this current moment? A hash brown.
=(
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Identity Crisis.
Something to share.
I believe that people change dramatically during their adolescent years. Some have drastic changes in their character and their approach towards the world ought to be different, as though they had a new pair of eyes, whereas there are some which doesn't change that much or maybe just a little. Well, during this stage of their life, many people question their identity. Who am i?
Can anyone tell me what defines a person? Is it the food that a person eats? Maybe it's what people say about you which makes you who you are? Or maybe we just don't really know who we are anymore or we do not even know who we are from the start!
I suppose that all, if not, most of us would not agree that what defines a person is not by the food he or she eats. The second answer, what people say about you is what defines you? A bigger bunch of people would agree with it to some certain extend, in fact they would agree that THIS is what defines a person. But if somebody calls you a loser, do you accept and agree that you're a loser? I'm sure you'd prove the person wrong because you know you're worth more than that. No more further questions. So what really defines a person?
I won't say that I know what is the right definition to describe a person, but I can still remember what Jeremy said, "there's a reason why we are called human beings and not human doings." Are we defined by what we do? I don't think so. Literally we are defined by what we do, if I teach, I would be a teacher But does that REALLY describes who I am?
I just don't know how to put it in words. BUT maybe to some certain extend who we are are what people think of us? If not why would they label us the way we are? OR I suppose what they label us is our characteristics but not who we really are? Sigh, confused. But I guess what's more important is that we know who we are ourselves. To know who you are will really bring out the best of you and you will not be shaken if you know who you are and your limits. Because if we do not know who we are, how are we to know our purpose in life?
oh by the way,
I've attended two camps which are on a similar topic, LOST and WHO AM I? Is there still a need for another identity crisis camp? I hope not. Are we ready for new challenges? I hope we are.
I believe that people change dramatically during their adolescent years. Some have drastic changes in their character and their approach towards the world ought to be different, as though they had a new pair of eyes, whereas there are some which doesn't change that much or maybe just a little. Well, during this stage of their life, many people question their identity. Who am i?
Can anyone tell me what defines a person? Is it the food that a person eats? Maybe it's what people say about you which makes you who you are? Or maybe we just don't really know who we are anymore or we do not even know who we are from the start!
I suppose that all, if not, most of us would not agree that what defines a person is not by the food he or she eats. The second answer, what people say about you is what defines you? A bigger bunch of people would agree with it to some certain extend, in fact they would agree that THIS is what defines a person. But if somebody calls you a loser, do you accept and agree that you're a loser? I'm sure you'd prove the person wrong because you know you're worth more than that. No more further questions. So what really defines a person?
I won't say that I know what is the right definition to describe a person, but I can still remember what Jeremy said, "there's a reason why we are called human beings and not human doings." Are we defined by what we do? I don't think so. Literally we are defined by what we do, if I teach, I would be a teacher But does that REALLY describes who I am?
I just don't know how to put it in words. BUT maybe to some certain extend who we are are what people think of us? If not why would they label us the way we are? OR I suppose what they label us is our characteristics but not who we really are? Sigh, confused. But I guess what's more important is that we know who we are ourselves. To know who you are will really bring out the best of you and you will not be shaken if you know who you are and your limits. Because if we do not know who we are, how are we to know our purpose in life?
oh by the way,
I've attended two camps which are on a similar topic, LOST and WHO AM I? Is there still a need for another identity crisis camp? I hope not. Are we ready for new challenges? I hope we are.
Monday, April 23, 2007
-.-"
The other side of the coin
As I lie awake on my bed,
After a long night of good rest,
the peace and tranquility adhere to the morning blues,
Which insist that I lay lackadaisically on my bed for a little longer.
The clock struck eight,
My tabletop alarm clock rings furiously,
What was a beautiful and calm morning has turned into something within my capacity to handle,
It was as though i was smacked right in the busy streets of downtown Kuala Lumpur.
Voices of people around the market place shouting from one end to another could be heard,
A homeless mother with her child sitting at a quiet alley was at sight,
A beggar which looks as though he hasn't taken a shower in a long while was also grabbing unnecessary attention,
He was hustling around the crowded streets tugging onto people.
And there I was,
Getting smaller by the moment and people of all stature were getting bigger,
I was feeling claustrophobic.
The feeling of insecurity and feeling breathless was overwhelming.
I started pushing my way around vigorously,
Finding for an empty space,
My vision was getting blurry and it wasn't helping,
And when I was about to give up I saw a bright light.
A hand was reaching out to me,
I felt and understood the feeling of hope as my hand reached out to his,
The noise from the busy streets was being overshadowed by this light,
I realized that it was something not of the ordinary.
I felt a sudden rush of adrenaline,
Chills ran up my spine,
Suddenly I awoke,
To find my boxer soaking wet.
My face turned red and hot, I was blushing!,
As I discovered my hands drenched in ice cold water,
Embarrassment filled the room and I knew the worst was yet to come,
And there stood my friends that came over for a project discussion laughing their heads off.
Shy..
-.-"
What I do when I am bored. Write!
stupid ending i know. he he.
penghan
As I lie awake on my bed,
After a long night of good rest,
the peace and tranquility adhere to the morning blues,
Which insist that I lay lackadaisically on my bed for a little longer.
The clock struck eight,
My tabletop alarm clock rings furiously,
What was a beautiful and calm morning has turned into something within my capacity to handle,
It was as though i was smacked right in the busy streets of downtown Kuala Lumpur.
Voices of people around the market place shouting from one end to another could be heard,
A homeless mother with her child sitting at a quiet alley was at sight,
A beggar which looks as though he hasn't taken a shower in a long while was also grabbing unnecessary attention,
He was hustling around the crowded streets tugging onto people.
And there I was,
Getting smaller by the moment and people of all stature were getting bigger,
I was feeling claustrophobic.
The feeling of insecurity and feeling breathless was overwhelming.
I started pushing my way around vigorously,
Finding for an empty space,
My vision was getting blurry and it wasn't helping,
And when I was about to give up I saw a bright light.
A hand was reaching out to me,
I felt and understood the feeling of hope as my hand reached out to his,
The noise from the busy streets was being overshadowed by this light,
I realized that it was something not of the ordinary.
I felt a sudden rush of adrenaline,
Chills ran up my spine,
Suddenly I awoke,
To find my boxer soaking wet.
My face turned red and hot, I was blushing!,
As I discovered my hands drenched in ice cold water,
Embarrassment filled the room and I knew the worst was yet to come,
And there stood my friends that came over for a project discussion laughing their heads off.
Shy..
-.-"
What I do when I am bored. Write!
stupid ending i know. he he.
penghan
Sunday, April 22, 2007
I'm still a momma's boy.
This is gonna very random, but I sometimes feel as though I'm like MOUTH from one tree hill. I've always been labeled the good guy, mummy's boy which to me is fine by all means if my friends wants to call me that, it doesn't really matter. But this spreads on and reaches to the girls. And yeah, I become the girls good friend. If they had any problem they know that they can rely on me and I'd be there to help in whatever way that I possibly can.
Some more today, as I was leaving from church, Aunty Susan (Raymond's mom) said, Wah, why so good boy one today? Follow your mom home. My mom said, must be the car no petrol ler. But the fact is, we are going the same place why drive two cars? Seriously, and every time I drive down on Sundays would be because I woke up late or either that I would have something to do later. Then one more aunty chipped in, yah, he(referring to me) reminds me of something ler. Like my nephew or something lah. ARGH. Continues, he has that good boy thing lah.
It's not a bad thing, really. But honestly, it'll really suck if the girl I like thinks of me as just a good friend. As in, only friend, no more than that. Sometimes I wish that I can be the bad guy. So that girls won't look at me as a mama's boy but rather me for me. Well, I just guess that girls have to understand that I'm a mama's boy and accept me for who I am. And if they love me for that, it'll be a bonus. HAHA. =P
p/s: I'm not always like that, and there's still no ahem ahem nonsense, just something I felt that I have been going through all these while. HAHA.. like what ben said, i promise I'm never like that.
Some more today, as I was leaving from church, Aunty Susan (Raymond's mom) said, Wah, why so good boy one today? Follow your mom home. My mom said, must be the car no petrol ler. But the fact is, we are going the same place why drive two cars? Seriously, and every time I drive down on Sundays would be because I woke up late or either that I would have something to do later. Then one more aunty chipped in, yah, he(referring to me) reminds me of something ler. Like my nephew or something lah. ARGH. Continues, he has that good boy thing lah.
It's not a bad thing, really. But honestly, it'll really suck if the girl I like thinks of me as just a good friend. As in, only friend, no more than that. Sometimes I wish that I can be the bad guy. So that girls won't look at me as a mama's boy but rather me for me. Well, I just guess that girls have to understand that I'm a mama's boy and accept me for who I am. And if they love me for that, it'll be a bonus. HAHA. =P
p/s: I'm not always like that, and there's still no ahem ahem nonsense, just something I felt that I have been going through all these while. HAHA.. like what ben said, i promise I'm never like that.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Long time no post
As I double clicked on my web browser, Morzilla Firefox, I typed in my blog address. Waited a few seconds and the page appeared. As I begun reading the title heading, life through words, I wondered to myself, sometimes I get so lazy to blog. What used to be something I do willingly seems as if it has become a thing which I do for the sake of doing. Not willingly, but rather forced to.
Haha, I wonder to myself, is my life just so dull that I've got nothing to share with you guys? Last post, more than a week ago. How pathetic is that. So, what have I been doing lately? Hmm, I've been watching quite a number of movies the past week. Old ones in fact, in the span of 4 days, I managed to watch 6 movies and 5 episodes of TV series, particularly OTH and OC. Yeah, that's how I fill my time these days, or you can rather say, how i waste my time.
Also, I finally downloaded some food for my ears, albums in fact, discography. portishead, jamiroquai, take that, the fray, good charlotte and a few others, and they've been excellent companion during the night. All of it have their unique and different genre. When I was a little younger my sense of music were more of the punk rock kind. But now, I listen from oldies, to acid funk, jazz, alternative, rock, punk rock, indie, and all the other genre, guess different genre suits me at different times.
As some of you know, a few of us performed for the Taming the Tiger event and I must admit that I felt a little too free after the event was over. Especially Wednesday and Sunday nights (practice sessions). The past month had brought a bunch of young people together for one purpose. And I must say it really brought the not so nice side of us, although there might be some slip ups I guess finally in the end we did put our differences aside and it made us stronger and brought the best out of us.
It was great working with new faces, discovering new character, new talents, making friends with people with a good sense of humour, and also I felt the warmth from God's people though it was just a short period of time. Well, here's something that'll keep me reminded of how passionate I am to serve him. And I hope it will be a reminder to you too!
Haha, I wonder to myself, is my life just so dull that I've got nothing to share with you guys? Last post, more than a week ago. How pathetic is that. So, what have I been doing lately? Hmm, I've been watching quite a number of movies the past week. Old ones in fact, in the span of 4 days, I managed to watch 6 movies and 5 episodes of TV series, particularly OTH and OC. Yeah, that's how I fill my time these days, or you can rather say, how i waste my time.
Also, I finally downloaded some food for my ears, albums in fact, discography. portishead, jamiroquai, take that, the fray, good charlotte and a few others, and they've been excellent companion during the night. All of it have their unique and different genre. When I was a little younger my sense of music were more of the punk rock kind. But now, I listen from oldies, to acid funk, jazz, alternative, rock, punk rock, indie, and all the other genre, guess different genre suits me at different times.
As some of you know, a few of us performed for the Taming the Tiger event and I must admit that I felt a little too free after the event was over. Especially Wednesday and Sunday nights (practice sessions). The past month had brought a bunch of young people together for one purpose. And I must say it really brought the not so nice side of us, although there might be some slip ups I guess finally in the end we did put our differences aside and it made us stronger and brought the best out of us.
It was great working with new faces, discovering new character, new talents, making friends with people with a good sense of humour, and also I felt the warmth from God's people though it was just a short period of time. Well, here's something that'll keep me reminded of how passionate I am to serve him. And I hope it will be a reminder to you too!
clockwise : Ben T, Nigel T, Eric K, Henry G, Tze yang,
David L and Eric C.
Missing from picture: (Yvonne, Eve and Adam)
United we Stand!
I haven't been writing any poems or literature to be more sophisticated. Haha!
Oh well, just something which came up to mind as I was writing this post.
Here goes.
Opposites attract
David L and Eric C.
Missing from picture: (Yvonne, Eve and Adam)
United we Stand!
I haven't been writing any poems or literature to be more sophisticated. Haha!
Oh well, just something which came up to mind as I was writing this post.
Here goes.
Opposites attract
The bright light which breaks the darkness,
Marks the beginning of a new day,
The lake in it's stillness,
Does not expose its underworld which is full of fray.
Mountains filled with lush greenery,
Filled with birds chirping sweetly.
What a beautiful scenery,
The work of God ever so lovely.
Winter, Summer, Autumn and Spring,
Are the four seasons in a year,
Each has its benefits and shortcomings,
Filled with confidence and fear.
Time is precious like gold,
Time is never waiting,
Move on and get a hold,
Or spend your life rotting.
Days that are gone are never replaceable,
Words which were spoken cannot be taken back,
Stupid things that we've done is often regrettable,
But make sure we don't give up and hit the sack.
- Peng han -
Marks the beginning of a new day,
The lake in it's stillness,
Does not expose its underworld which is full of fray.
Mountains filled with lush greenery,
Filled with birds chirping sweetly.
What a beautiful scenery,
The work of God ever so lovely.
Winter, Summer, Autumn and Spring,
Are the four seasons in a year,
Each has its benefits and shortcomings,
Filled with confidence and fear.
Time is precious like gold,
Time is never waiting,
Move on and get a hold,
Or spend your life rotting.
Days that are gone are never replaceable,
Words which were spoken cannot be taken back,
Stupid things that we've done is often regrettable,
But make sure we don't give up and hit the sack.
- Peng han -
sehingga aku kembali! =P, hengy
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Good Friday.
How can it be,
you were the one on the cross,
lifted for all our shame?
How can it be,
the scars in your hands are for me?
You are the King of all!
more than life.
you were the one on the cross,
lifted for all our shame?
How can it be,
the scars in your hands are for me?
You are the King of all!
more than life.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Events and happenings
Guys, it's already the fourth month of the year! That means almost a hundred days have passed!
Let's just stop and see what I've achieved in this past 100 days.
1) Lost a kg, but physically haven't changed. (80kg)
2) Managed to finished the 2000 pieces puzzle which i bought in June last year!
3) Finished reading 2 books.
4) Tried dry bak kut teh.
5) Gone to Redang
6) Gone to Camerons
7) Tried fishing for 3 hours, ended my day without a single catch
8) Got an autograph from a 3 time world kung fu champion!
Oh well, that's just a few things that I've achieved over the last 100 days.
I can't say that to this point in the year my life has been exactly great, but neither can I say that it has been exceptionally dull.
And if, there is any of you who's feeling spiritually low, or rather felt that you've been straying away from our Father, then I urge you to come for the Taming the Tiger event. Details are as below:
Let's just stop and see what I've achieved in this past 100 days.
1) Lost a kg, but physically haven't changed. (80kg)
2) Managed to finished the 2000 pieces puzzle which i bought in June last year!
3) Finished reading 2 books.
4) Tried dry bak kut teh.
5) Gone to Redang
6) Gone to Camerons
7) Tried fishing for 3 hours, ended my day without a single catch
8) Got an autograph from a 3 time world kung fu champion!
Oh well, that's just a few things that I've achieved over the last 100 days.
I can't say that to this point in the year my life has been exactly great, but neither can I say that it has been exceptionally dull.
And if, there is any of you who's feeling spiritually low, or rather felt that you've been straying away from our Father, then I urge you to come for the Taming the Tiger event. Details are as below:
Venue: Shah Alam Gospel Centre
Time: 1.30 - 4.30 (Approx.)
Speaker: Tony Anthony
Time: 1.30 - 4.30 (Approx.)
Speaker: Tony Anthony
Have been through a lot for this event. And no kidding it has been an adventure which was not a smooth ride as I thought it would have been. But this event has certainly brought me closer to some friends which I haven't been in contact in a while and it also brought me new friends. It has also brought me closer to God, it's like I have to be extra conscious about what I am doing and I wouldn't want to be in the center of the attention, would i?
I realized that many of us love God, but then again we do not acknowledge his wrath and because of that we take things for granted, thinking that God is a gracious God and will always forgive us. But, sometimes asking for forgiveness seems so cliche in this generation, asking just for the sake of asking.
Well, I'm already fired up for this coming Saturday's event! Honestly, if you've been running dry, or felt that a good speaker has been absent for a long time, do come and hear some good news. Oh, and when I say good speaker, I mean GOOD. simple, straight to the point, and easy listening. And I say this because I've heard him speak before. =). So i really hope to see you there, and may you be blessed. Till then.
Cizo! Outta here.
I realized that many of us love God, but then again we do not acknowledge his wrath and because of that we take things for granted, thinking that God is a gracious God and will always forgive us. But, sometimes asking for forgiveness seems so cliche in this generation, asking just for the sake of asking.
Well, I'm already fired up for this coming Saturday's event! Honestly, if you've been running dry, or felt that a good speaker has been absent for a long time, do come and hear some good news. Oh, and when I say good speaker, I mean GOOD. simple, straight to the point, and easy listening. And I say this because I've heard him speak before. =). So i really hope to see you there, and may you be blessed. Till then.
Cizo! Outta here.
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