Shape of my heart

Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here don't put out the glow
Hold me now don't bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become, oh yeah

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Sadness is beautiful loneliness that's tragical
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

I'm looking back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Show you the shape of my heart

Don't you think it's so hard being a Christian these days? (don't worry, I'm still standing firm of my beliefs as a Christian)
But I thought, it would be good for us to take a moment and ponder,
it's like the truth remains as one..but the sinful things are growing more and more each day!

I miss you :(

Tired. I must say that after not being to the gym in a month plus, today's workout just killed me.

21-15-9
Pull ups
Thruster @ 16kg/KB
Burpees.

The body needs to be seasoned to the sort of exercise once again.

On another thought,

Jesus asked Peter, Peter do you love me?" and Peter replied Jesus, Even if I were to die with You, I will not deny You!" Matthew 26:35

But then again, as we all know Peter denied Jesus 3 times.

Peter loved Jesus in a way a natural man loves a good person. Yet it is nothing but emotional love. It may reach deeply into our natural self, but it never penetrates to the spirit of a person.
Sometimes it makes me wonder, how deep can God's love be for us, I know the answer is even to the point of giving up His one and only Son for us. But to really experience it first hand and to understand the true intensity must have been hurtful.

How I wish I could love like how Jesus loved us. To be able to understand the intensity of it, priceless.